In the name of Allah, Most Gracious, Most Merciful

{who know with certainty that they shall meet their Sustainer and that unto Him they shall return}

Okay...That fact is hardly ever even cross my mind... and the reason for that is it's so filled with my own concerns..so filled that theresn't much space left for any other kind of problems ... ..
Regardless of how important particular issue or a message may be, I don't give it much thought...as long as it's not a life problem...then it doesn't come first


I always think....


let me get to the bottom of the ones I have in hands.. especially the ones concerning my personality.. the change I always seek..


**I confess that all my life...I haven't properly prayed my salah..The moment I say: ALLAH AKBAR...I think about EVERYthing I haven't thought of all week but this moment.. it's shaytan..we know that...


**I confess that I never cried.. in my salah.. i haven't cried in my sujood..


**I have to confess.. that to me salah is a burden that i force myself to carry out. What's wrong with me?! There... i got myself a good reason to worry about... hopefully cry some guilty tears..


Ok ..here's a good tip:

while in sujood i will do my best to think about my worst nightmare..Facing god *leaving dunia* ..without having performed one decent salah...

Another scary thought: I'm not close to Allah.. that's why I can't taste any sweetness in my salah...like the sahaba did *may Allah be pleased with them*.. they used to miss it...ADORE it...


IF the salah is lacking...everything esle will be lacking...then I become nothing..

Just then.. only Allah's mercy will stand between me and the hell fire...



IF tears still don't flow down my cheeks.. then I had no choice but to ask it directly from Allah:
WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME, O ALLAH?


Whatever been holding those tears back?? could it be my sins .. HAS TO BE

ok..



Cry a river.. for you're in a very very deep trouble..