In the name of Allah, Most Gracious, Most Merciful

{who know with certainty that they shall meet their Sustainer and that unto Him they shall return}

Okay...That fact is hardly ever even cross my mind... and the reason for that is it's so filled with my own concerns..so filled that theresn't much space left for any other kind of problems ... ..
Regardless of how important particular issue or a message may be, I don't give it much thought...as long as it's not a life problem...then it doesn't come first


I always think....


let me get to the bottom of the ones I have in hands.. especially the ones concerning my personality.. the change I always seek..


**I confess that all my life...I haven't properly prayed my salah..The moment I say: ALLAH AKBAR...I think about EVERYthing I haven't thought of all week but this moment.. it's shaytan..we know that...


**I confess that I never cried.. in my salah.. i haven't cried in my sujood..


**I have to confess.. that to me salah is a burden that i force myself to carry out. What's wrong with me?! There... i got myself a good reason to worry about... hopefully cry some guilty tears..


Ok ..here's a good tip:

while in sujood i will do my best to think about my worst nightmare..Facing god *leaving dunia* ..without having performed one decent salah...

Another scary thought: I'm not close to Allah.. that's why I can't taste any sweetness in my salah...like the sahaba did *may Allah be pleased with them*.. they used to miss it...ADORE it...


IF the salah is lacking...everything esle will be lacking...then I become nothing..

Just then.. only Allah's mercy will stand between me and the hell fire...



IF tears still don't flow down my cheeks.. then I had no choice but to ask it directly from Allah:
WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME, O ALLAH?


Whatever been holding those tears back?? could it be my sins .. HAS TO BE

ok..



Cry a river.. for you're in a very very deep trouble..

Imagine this....


Someone knows ALLL about you...every thought you had...no matter how bad... how good.. ridiculous..disgusting...he's watching what's going on there inside of you...


Not only that ...but..he knows what are you going to think next.. when you yourself.. don't..

Subhan Allah...

(قُلْ كَفَىٰ بِاللَّهِ شَهِيدًا بَيْنِي وَبَيْنَكُمْ ۚ إِنَّهُ كَانَ بِعِبَادِهِ خَبِيرًا بَصِيرًا)

(Say: 'God suffices as a witness between me and you; surely He is aware of and sees His servants.' (96)

WE better watch not just what we do...but also what we think.. WE MUST at least try to be consious of Allah all the time..

Allah's knowledge and awareness can embrace every little thing in the universe..

(وَقَالَ الَّذِينَ كَفَرُوا لَا تَأْتِينَا السَّاعَةُ ۖ قُلْ ۖبَلَىٰ وَرَبِّي لَتَأْتِيَنَّكُمْ عَالِمِ الْغَيْبِ ۖ لا يَعْزُبُ عَنْهُ مِثْقَالُ ذَرَّةٍ فِي السَّمَاوَاتِ وَلَا فِي الْأَرْضِ وَلَا أَصْغَرُ مِن ذَٰلِكَ وَلَا أَكْبَرُ إِلَّا فِي كِتَابٍ مُّبِينٍ)

(The unbelievers say, 'The Hour will never come to us.' Say: 'Yes indeed, by my Lord, it shall come to you, by Him who knows the Unseen; not so much as the weight of an ant in heaven and earth escapes from Him, neither is aught smaller than that, or greater, but it is in a Manifest Book)

For one reason, you see, sometimes the most embarrassing most disgusting thoughts... cross our minds.. Funny how our minds always seems too try to escape the fact that..

Allah is watching..



Allah knows...

( قُلْ إِن تُخْفُوا مَا فِي صُدُورِكُمْ أَوْ تُبْدُوهُ يَعْلَمْهُ اللَّهُ ۗ وَيَعْلَمُ مَا فِي السَّمَاوَاتِ وَمَا فِي الْأَرْضِ ۗ وَاللَّهُ عَلَىٰ كُلِّ شَيْءٍ قَدِير)

(Say: 'Whether you hide what is in your breasts or publish it, God knows it. God knows what is in the heavens and what is in the earth; and God is powerful over everything') Surat Al Emran verse no. 29

Everything is in his hands..and he created us for only one specific reason..and that is to worship him...